Growin' up...

Growing up in Alaska was pretty cool. Living in the cold environment we always joked that Alaskans have the best skin bc we are basically cryofrozen in subzero temperatures our whole life hahaha

As a younger girl, I never felt quite like I “fit in”

I was always kinda odd, a little louder than most of the other kids, quite colorful & bold. Super smart. I wasn’t pretty, I wasn’t fully “developed” physically until after high school. The one thing I wanted more than anything as a young girl was to just be ACCEPTED, to be LIKED, to be NORMAL. Like the other kids...

I just wanted to be normal...

But I was teased constantly, was the butt of many jokes, and was NEVER picked first for the dodgeball games...lol I guess you could say I was pretty nerdy.

(I'm basically still pretty nerdy, not gonna lie haha) I suffered from “fifth wheel syndrome” - I always felt like the 5th wheel, like I was never really "welcome".

When I found marijuana at the ripe age of 12 years old, I thought it would be the key for me to just be “normal” like the other kids. It was the catalyst for me to fit in and be cool & accepted.

To Be Continued...

The view from the front door of the house I grew up in...

Have you ever done something you normally wouldn’t do to “belong”? Tell me in the comments, don’t be shy! This is a judgment free zone...xoxo